Thank you Sanka for this beautiful song. My running has been going about as well as Sanka’s song did fundraising for the Jamaican bobsled team…. not very well! Despite this, I have been so grateful for the many people who have been supporting me over the last few months with my running. I’m actually a bit timid about sharing my running and how it’s going, but I thought I should probably give you all a real update.
Here’s the story: February was AMAZING! I was PRing, felt fabulous, was right on track. March was TERRIBLE! The exact opposite of February. This month has been a bit better but not much. Today I raced at Mt. Sac and it went a little worse than mediocre. Yeah I’m not running the slowest of slow but I’m not where I should or can be. After talking to my former coach and my present coach, we are all at a bit of a loss! The words frustration, confusion, and discouragement are the perfect description for today and the last month of running.
My body can be a pain. It often struggles and at the drop of a hat will decide to run like an old grandma. Then miraculously it will snap out of it. I’m waiting for the ‘snap out of it’ part right now and praying for a miracle. Any extra prayers would be appreciated. I’ve been working my butt off since last February. This means workouts at 8 or 9 PM after a 10-12 hour work day, workouts at 4:30 AM before a 10 hour work day, and hours and hours of miles and miles of running. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve loved training and love running, but I would also love to feel like I’ve tapped into my potential or at least get to where I was earlier in the season. The purpose of this was not to see if I could train, but to see if I could FINALLY reach that potential of mine.
Despite all this, today’s race wasn’t a total loss. Here are the top 10 things I liked about today:
#1. I didn’t biff it. In my book, that makes it a successful steeplechase.
#2. The girl that pummeled me at this same race a few years ago and popped my hip out was standing right next to me on the start line and I didn’t give her a wet willy. It’s the small victories, you know.
#3. Grandma pace didn’t set in until lap 4.5…. it’s come much earlier before.
#4. I almost forgot to jump over the first barrier. But then I jumped. See reference #1.
#5. I warmed up successfully without getting into the wrong neighborhoods. CA, Chicago, NY…. there’s been some close calls with gangsters. Good job me, you didn’t get popped today.
#6. I didn’t throw a temper tantrum after my race. I got my water, I saw my husband, I shed a tear, and that was the end of it. At UNLV a few weeks ago you would have thought my bunny had been murdered I was so angry.
#7. I got out of work. Spring Break was last week, I took off two days this week, 5 weeks left in the school year. Boom baby.
#8. I didn’t pee my pants. I just grossed about 85,000 of my readers out…. but this is a problem for distance runners, myself included. Happy day I wasn’t the gross one out there this week! [See article here for other gross running problemas]
#9. My cute little athletes, family, and friends are all so supportive. It’s so fun seeing my old teammates and coaches as well as the support of the girls I coach. I missed their meet this weekend [which I was way bummed about] but a lot of them texted me/wished me luck and it meant the world.
#10. I have the biggest fan in the guy I married. No matter how discouraged or frustrated I get, he is always there to pick me up and encourage me. I am so grateful for his support, love, and 100% belief in me. A lot of times he’ll pull me aside before or after a race, make me look him in the eyes, and tell me how much he believes in me and how proud of me he is. There is no way I could have done this without his support or love. Thanks for being my #1 fan B.